Thursday, August 19, 2010

31

  • Baskin Robbins has 31 flavors
  • I am 31 years old
  • January 31 is the 31st day of the year in the Gregorian Calendar
  • Proverbs 31: 30-31....
    30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
    but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

    31 Give her the reward she has earned,
    and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

  • My progesterone level is 31 (!)
I really just wanted to talk about my progesterone level, but thought it wouldn't be so shocking if I lead you there through some seemingly innocuous factoids about the number 31.... did it work? Are you shocked? Well, to bad. I am SO PUMPED. Do you realize what this means? I, Aunt Fabulous, the "non-ovulator", have definitely ovulated. You can't help but ovulate if you have that much progesterone in your body. Most people are between a 10 and 20.... I am THIRTY ONE!!! For those of you who are still scratching your head, this is a pretty big deal. My hubs and I have been trying to conceive for almost 2 years now and, to be blunt, I'm tired of trying. I'm ready for results. However, I do feel torn about it. In order to get my body to do what it should be doing naturally, I had to take medication. I want to be a mother more than just about anything, and I'm quickly finding that I would go to any length to achieve motherhood- but somewhere in the back of my mind a little voice keeps saying, "if your body isn't doing it on its own, is it wise to force the issue?" If a person can't have a baby naturally, should they have one at all? This thought makes me very unpopular with myself. Of course I should have a baby, you insensitive schmo! I'm going to be an incredible-unbelievable-magical-mega-super-fantastical-MAMA! So why can't I just create the dang child? Why do I need medical assistance? Is the universe trying to tell me something? OR have we humans done such terrible things to our food and water and who knows what else, that we are causing an exaggerated number women to become infertile- many more than nature ever intended? Thats the answer I'm leaning towards. Because I do know so many women who have been struggling with infertility far longer than I. And these ladies are going to make tremendous mothers. And advances in medicine and technology are a blessing for all of us. I mean, hey, last month I was a 3 and today I'm a 31!! If thats not a miracle of modern science...... So lets raise a glass to clomid, ovulation, progesterone, and "relations", and say a little prayer that this time it works!

3 comments:

  1. I came across your blog (while doing my class blog assignment). I normally do my assignment and that is it.. Today an error message came up and then there was your blog.
    I will surely keep you and yours in my prayers. You will have your little bundle or bundles of Joy.... Positive thoughts.

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